Thursday, 23 October 2014

A Drop of Happiness


I have a friend with the helping nature, helping others is in his behavior. Whenever he sees anyone in problem he raises his hands. Many times because of this nature he gets surrounded by troubles. Because of this I and my other friends suggest him not to help everyone. We tell him that if the other person is your good friend or you seek any help from that needy person you could help him. But getting in trouble because of people who don’t value your help is not worthy. From my point of view this was the perfect suggestion for him, until one day-

A few weeks ago, it was the time of submissions. We had to write 5 journals consisting of hundreds of pages. Wise people started writing them from the very beginning of semester. But I am not one of them. But I have many friends who could give me the content to write when I need them.

 And like always dates for final submissions arrived and I haven’t yet started writing them. I was watching “wise” people of our class writing assignments for last 2-3 weeks. But I was not so tensed because I was not alone this time, for the first time I had my very best friends with me :P  But ultimately we had to submit it. Not at the given dates but at least before our practical exams. And the time came when we had only 5 days for our practical exams and this been that critical point of our semester that at any cost we had to start writing. I thought I have 5 days and 5 journals, one journal per day. But when I actually started writing I realized it was not that simple. Somehow I completed 2 journals and at 3rd night I had nothing to write (I mean nothing to copy from). In my class there is group who were ahead of everyone in the race of submissions. And I had very good friends of mine in that group. And I was sure that they will help me. So I called my wise friend of that group to give me a journal to copy. When I called her she said she gave her all journals to another fellow of her group. I was bit unsatisfied because of this answer because I thought everyone in her group had completed the writing part. But she was a very good friend of mine, so I trusted her. Then I called another girl in her group, she said she gave her all journals to another fellow of her group. This time I was really shocked. And eventually I realized that all the people of their group gave all their journals to some another fellow of their own group. Actually they are my good friends so I trust them that they were not lying. But I am confused that everyone had completed their journals but no one had them. But I trust them, they were not lying maybe they were exchanging their journals with themselves because of some technical reasons.

Then one of my friends just like me who was struggling to survive, suggested me to complete my drawing sheets that night. And I was okay with this idea because sheets were the major part of our submissions. So again I had to call a very good friend of mine who had nothing with her and asked her to give me the sheets. And she said even her sheets were not with her. What the hell, for a second I thought to hang up the call. But because of my impotency I had to ask her for the pictures of the sheets. I asked her to call her friend who was having her sheets and ask him/her to click the pictures and send them to you. And then you send me that pictures or else I will waste my whole night and I will be in the great trouble tomorrow. She somehow agreed. And I was waiting for the pictures, and I was just waiting. But I haven’t got any pictures from her. One of the most important nights of my life got wasted. And now the equation was 2 days- 3 journals.

And because we are ruled by the dimension called TIME it was clear that my submissions were not going to complete even before exams. But submissions are the things which you will have to do at any cost at any conditions. Next morning I got other journals to copy (not from the people of the group I mentioned above). That day I was writing continuously for whole day. I got so frustrated that I wish I could run from my life leaving all these things behind. But I couldn’t. At night I went to my friends place, even he had some things to complete (not like me, I was at the last in the race). Anyways I had no wish to win the race, I just had to complete. I started writing again, hundreds of pages with uncountable diagrams. But I was not drawing any diagrams I planned to draw them when I complete my writing stuff. Whole night I was writing. My friend slept at about 3 am. I was still writing. And I knew I can’t complete these things alone. At this instant I needed at-least one other hand to help me. I already tried calling my some friends to help me by writing or drawing some of the diagrams. But because of some personal social or professional reasons they told they can’t do anything. I even tried some of my old friends whom I expected to help me, but the result was negative. I was alone. I was Alone doing that thing which was impossible but had no other options. At that condition I was like if there would be any way to skip this thing I would have gone for that. That day I realized the truth of life, you are alone in this world. You are born alone, you are going to die alone, you are going to live alone and you are going to complete this thing alone :P.

I know you must be thinking that I am writing this in a hyperbole type of thing. But no, this was my real condition. I was so helpless that even if I get one diagram from any of my friend I could have owned that for him for my whole life.

 And at that night after my friend slept. The most difficult part came. I realized that I broke the human limits. My eyes were getting close for themselves (without my permission). I was still writing. My eyes became red my speed of writing reduced, I was unable to read, and I started getting headache. At about 5 am I had completed 4 journals, out of which diagrams of 1 journal were still remaining. Then I thought to go home and take some rest. I started driving from my friends place to my home, plugging ear phones, playing radio at full volume. And on the way I found a tea-shop, I decided to drink tea, my headphones were still on. I randomly changed the radio station, and then I heard some slow music playing. Then I realized that it was the song from movie “OMG-oh my god”, that time I didn’t knew the name of that song but afterword I found that the name of song was ‘mere nishan’. I knew this song but never heard it carefully, and I started to listen carefully. Then I came to know that in that song god himself was sharing his feelings to humans. In the first line he told that he made this world not of soil but with full of emotions. He was saying like he lives in everything including birds, animals, even in non living things. So it was interesting to listen it. And at that time I was emotionally very week so I was getting everything the singer wanted to say. Then in lyrics it was something like, whenever you were in scorching heat, I provided you the shadow (something like this, it was in hindi so I can’t completely translate it in English in d same manner :( ). He meant to say that whenever you were in trouble I helped you in some way.

The point is, that song was playing at perfect time that it caught my nerves. I was so much in trouble and I really expected that I will get his help in some way or maybe not because he must be testing my strengths. But I really needed at something in my favor, maybe I thought because of some reason dates of submissions should gets delayed. I don’t know what I was hoping for. Somehow I went to home and fell asleep. I managed to get sleep for 5-6 hours and had to get up because of the reason I think you know now. And when I woke up I checked my cell. And I saw two missed calls from a girl of junior batch. I was blank and had no strengths to estimate the reason for that. So I directly called her. She said she has completed with her all submissions and she wished to help me. At that that movement, that very movement I felt what happiness is. I mean I don’t know was that just a coincidence, before sleeping I was asking god for some help and next day that girl called me. Last day, I asked her for the help but she refused because of her submissions and now she was helping me. Maybe that was coincidence. But I believe that god answered me. Whatever that was I owe that girl. She came when I really needed someone; god listened when I prayed from my heart. At the call I couldn’t answer her because I was in the hang (blank) state. But then I texted her to meet me and take that journal in which I haven’t drawn the diagrams. For some time I thought not to take help from her because I wasn’t expecting her to help me, but I had no choice. I had to take her help. The day before, I was thinking that if someone helps me even for one diagram he will have me with his side for the whole life. And the next day a girl helped me with the diagrams of whole journal.

That whole day I was thinking that help of that girl meant me so much. Then the people who always help others must be getting so much of blessings. Then my friend of whom I wrote in the very first paragraph came in my mind. That person goes and helps the people even without expecting anything from them; he must be getting how much of blessings. This article I dedicate to that friend, to that girl and guy who gave me journals to copy. And this is to encourage them that even if you don’t get anything in return you will get tons blessings. May be your helping nature will make you an avatar of god for a person who seek your help. And I know most of the time you will not get anything from the people whom you helped.

But in my case I will be with you whenever you need me. I exactly know who helped and who haven’t. And I will return all the favors. For the people who haven’t helped me; they will get the exact behavior from me. Even when they will ask me for water when they are dying, I will tell them that I gave my water bottle to my friend. I will show them the mirror. Because I always pay my debts.

The above paragraph I really wanted to say from my heart. But no I don’t mean it. In front of me I have two types of people, people who helped me and the people who haven’t. And I choose to become like the people who helped me. Because I know how much they mean for me. And if I get a chance to be just a drop of happiness in someone’s life, I will help them without expecting anything. And the above statement is valid for the people who haven’t helped me too.

Tuesday, 14 October 2014

Inhumanity in Humans

In September 2014, the Jammu & Kashmir region was hit by heavy floods caused by torrential rainfall. The regions of Jammu and Kashmir in India, as well as Azad Kashmir, Gilgit-Baltistan and Punjab in Pakistan, were affected by these floods. Many people came forward to help them.

                 While watching TV I was thinking how could I help them? As I am the President of ABVP of my college, I asked people working on district level for it. They told me that I can collect fund from college and can give it for the people in Kashmir. Then I had a plan in my mind, I was going to make a box in which I could collect the fund. For the maximum fund I had to take care that we will go to every classroom and ask every student to make some contribution. For all this, I needed some people to help me. ABVP unit of my college has some of the posts so that we can work fluently. But one of the major post-holder and a very good friend of mine had already said that he will not do any work of ABVP. Because of that I couldn’t ask him for anything. So I called my other friend and told him this whole plan. Then he asked me, ‘we can hardly collect 2000-3000 from whole college and do you think this money will make any contribution?’ I was really disappointed by this statement. Then I called other friend he said that he’ll help but he won’t come in every class (maybe he thought going in every class and asking for money is like begging for something). Other guy said tomorrow lets arrange a meeting and decide should we do it? (He needed a meeting and a discussion for doing this thing. I think he thought this is very difficult thing to do and needed special discussion to progress). Then I texted a girl of ABVP that let us collect some fund in our college. She simply replied ‘I am busy’ (this was the least expected answer from any human).

                I got so discouraged and helpless because of these people. These were the people who always promised me do something good for society. And when there was the time to do something, these people showed the inhumanity of themselves. Since my childhood I used to listen that there are both good and bad people in this world, that day it got proved. But somehow I got people to assist me. Then I called a teacher of my college and told him the plan. But he said that a girl was collecting fund on 4th floor (last floor of our college where the least people of college goes). He said that you won’t get permission of principle for doing this thing again. So I thought to help that girl. Next day I went on 4th floor but she was not there. I asked people of that floor about her, a guy said last day he saw her. He even checked the collection box of her and he added that there was hardly 400-500rs in her box. I tried to find her but I failed.

                I failed to do one good thing to society when society needed me. This will be the one thing I’ll regret for my whole life. I will regret not because I have some stupid, selfish and fake people around me. But I’ll regret because I failed to stand alone. I failed to go against college authorities for a good cause. I failed to stand alone. 

                And I do respect that girl who was collecting fund on 4th floor. Maybe she hasn’t got expected collection from our college. But she did her job. And she did it alone. If there is any existence of things like blessings, she’s having it all. She is #MyCrisisAngel. This world will not sink until the people like her are in this world. Thanks to  for encouraging all the people who wants to make some contribution for society.